I would like to begin with an apology for taking an unannounced hiatus. My life became an interesting roller coaster the past three weeks.
So what does an individual do to uplift themselves? One could surround themselves with other people to be uplifted. This seems to be a problematic cure. If the individual's network of uplifters are unavailable or if the feeling also comes linked with a sense of anxiety toward loud noises or crowds. What does an individual to do?
I think that the most important thing to do is find things to do that help usher out the awful feelings, the grey muck, and soul clogging ick. I stayed away because I had let myself be swallowed so completely by my own dim prospects. So I entered a writing challenge. One page of writing per each day of December. I have also written a short short story and submitted it to a contest. I still feel like I'm dragging myself through wall of cobwebs that clump together to even further hinder my progress, but I can see that I am still creating. I am still going on. I continue to achieve and complete the tasks I have set forth on myself.
That has been my most difficult lesson to learn. To assign myself tasks and put together due dates and deadlines. School never prepared me for designing and completing my own goals and assignments. I only learned to excel at things that others put in front of me.
I often wonder if I can continue to make progress on things I would want to achieve for myself. I have short term goals full of creation and art. My long term goals of success and finding my match seem impossible dreams to grasp.
