5 Stupid Things I Can't Believe Women Say

I often astonished by the hat, bigotty, and just plain stupid things that fall out of the mouths of people around me. So I compiled a list of 5 stupidest things I've heard women say. And all of these I have heard multple times from different women.

5. "I would never let my husband or son wear pink." Seriously? No, really, seriously? I just can't really touch this one. The shear stupidity of the statement boggles me. It's a color not a gender identifier or a dirty thing. It's a fucking color. In fact it's red with some whit added. Seriously you would ban your male family members from wearing red with some white mixed in?

4. When pregnant women call themselves fat. First off a woman should never call herself fat out of self hate or for any reason either. Unless, you say as a positive. Second, bitch you're preggers. You are going to get so huge you will forget you have feet. The fact that you are saying such awful things about a beautiful body that is busy creating and keeping safe is a new life just makes me want to vomit in your mouth. I won't do that because you're pregnant, but it is the stupid statement ever.

3. "You're a pretty girl if you would just loose some weight and wear make-up." Again this one blows my mind. I get this from strangers. You know what? I like who I am and what I am. I may spend a lot of time self improving, but it's my attitudes and abilities to communicate that I improve. I happen to like being all natural and rotund.

2. "I have no problem with homosexuals, but I could not accept my children being gay. I would kick them out of my house." WHAT THE FUCK! This has so many things wrong with it. First you are more contradictory than the term jumbo shrimp. You don't have a problem as long as you aren't related to a homosexual. That doesn't even make sense.  Two what the fuck is wrong with you. That's your child you plan to disown just because they fall  in love. I'm quite surprised they know how to love with a parent like you.

1. "I call my six year fatty. So they can get motivated to loose weight." All I can say is in ten years you child will be borderline dead to an eating disorder. I know all about this one first hand. It doesn't motivate your child to loose weight it motivates them to over eat or starve themselves. Food becomes a daemon that rips your child's bond with you apart.

Getting my act together!

So the past few weeks have been a bit trying for me. It's lead to my blog being constantly late. I hoping to correct that . Mondays must post on Mondays!

Anyway, I've also joined 13 dating sites. I think I might be ready for it. Honestly and truthfully ready. I recently fell for a mistake, but I've grown to learn from it. No matter what I will stick to the personal changes I have made for myself and not let anybody make me feel bad about myself in any way.

Beginning in December I will start to go on one date every other Saturday. Should be an interesting time.

I am Me

10 things I came to terms with in the last few days:

1. I am a fierce lover. So fierce in fact that I scare the crap out of people. Sort of like Elmyra from Tiny Toons. I should probably work on that.

2. When I am done with people I am done. I feel absolutely nothing for them once I let them go. It's like I have a switch and I can go from Love to Indifference in 0 seconds flat. I wonder what that says about me as a person. Meh

3. I put up with a lot of shit from a lot of people. What is that about?

4. Some how I manage to make people think I am their friend when I just kind of tolerate them.

5. I am bad with money. I really need to do something about that one.

6. I think being celibate has finally killed my libido. Does this mean I'm going to loose it or is that a myth.

7. I love random. I love being random. I love other people being random. I love the randomness of Earth.

8. I am easily distracted and I like it.

9. My creative mind is an asset not something to be ashamed of. Sorry mother I like to make stuff and write stories.

10. I really can't bring myself to care when I disappoint people. I hate disappointing myself as I have high expectations when it comes to certain things. However, it really pisses me off when people tell me they are disappointed in me. Hey, dick, it's my life and my existence go suck a duck and worry about your own damn self.

Wow that last one sure escalated quickly.
So . . . umm . . .
I guess that makes eleven.

11. I feel emotions really hard. I mean hard not amplified or deeply. My emotions are kind of like rocks flying at a curio cabinet full of fabrigé eggs. So much shattered pretty.

Little Doors

Last week was full of changes for me. I finally finished moving in with a couple of my best friends. Unpacking is going somewhat slowly, but prospects of a garage sale this coming weekend is exciting.

So big changes in my life. More than anything, though, is the change I discovered in myself on my way to la casa after work. I had a small epiphany. I was jamming out the radio and enjoying the cooler air sweeping into town. I looked around and knew autumn had hit the Gulf Coast. No brightly colored leaves here just rain, the sent of wet dirt, and cool air.

As I listened to my music I felt it. A tiny wound closing up. A door slamming shut. I have struggling detaching myself from a person I though I was in love with, but he did not want me. Those feelings I had for him finally got shut off today. It happens like that for me. One day I'm crazy in love and heart broken over rejection and the next I am free. That really is what I experience a tightness in my chest gone. A cage door swinging wide a tear in my heart closing up.

Is it wrong I grow cold so quickly? It's a way to survive. The person(s) I am to share my life with would not tear me down and leave me feeling awful about myself. Love doesn't work that way. SO can I feel love? Real love? I don't know. I don't really care. There are reasons I am the Queen of Hearts.

Time

I often wonder what my life would be like if it was devoid of all the misery, heartache, betrayal, pain, and loneliness. What would I be like without my special brain and aches? Would I be able to distinguish that there are worse things out there? Would I appreciate the laughter and momentary glimpses of love that I get?

Where would I be? Married with my coveted 2.5 kids, dog, and white picket fence?

Or would it make any difference at all if I were ordinary? What if I had been able to conform and be just like my sister? Is quiet and demur a better existence?

I often spend my time thinking about such things. I wouldn't be me anymore and I doubt I would see the value in everyone and everything that I do.

I really should stop wasting my time on the what ifs. My life is pretty unreal. So my daughter doesn't have a father around, but what we do have is a house full of people that take time to talk to each other and figure out what's wrong or what's right with everybody. We take time for each other and we take time for ourselves.

Enjoying what I have now is far more important than and enjoyable than any what could have been.

Changes in the Fall

So my world is up ending, but in a good way. I have sheltered myself from risk a long time and have slowly sank deeper and deeper into despair. Fortunately for my I have people in my life that will remind me that my most successful ventures have always been about great risks.

Therefore I am moving towns, I am searching for a new job, I am digging up old friends and searching for new ones, I am diving into my crafts and creating again. My bestie and I will be attempting to audition for a cooking a show that may help speed up the launch of our little restaurant.

Excitement is leaking back into my heart. I hadn't felt the flutter of anticipation when I wake up in the morning in so very long. It's a wonderful feeling. I will fight everyday to build on that excitement and share it with all those around me.

I will keep it short today because I have lists to make of dreams I will build on.

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Waiting for my game to load I get to remember to type my blog. HA! I am trying so hard to not be bad at this.

I do have some pretty interesting things that just pop into my head and then suddenly I have to do it.

Tonight I got ordained as a minister. I can totally marry people now.
Even more exciting I can marry people in my Queen of Hearts cosplay/ren garb. So awesome!

I also have gotten to talk to an old friend. We have a date to hang out this weekend. Should be a whole lot of fun.

Not much to talk about today so I'm leaving it at that.