10 things I came to terms with in the last few days:
1. I am a fierce lover. So fierce in fact that I scare the crap out of people. Sort of like Elmyra from Tiny Toons. I should probably work on that.
2. When I am done with people I am done. I feel absolutely nothing for them once I let them go. It's like I have a switch and I can go from Love to Indifference in 0 seconds flat. I wonder what that says about me as a person. Meh
3. I put up with a lot of shit from a lot of people. What is that about?
4. Some how I manage to make people think I am their friend when I just kind of tolerate them.
5. I am bad with money. I really need to do something about that one.
6. I think being celibate has finally killed my libido. Does this mean I'm going to loose it or is that a myth.
7. I love random. I love being random. I love other people being random. I love the randomness of Earth.
8. I am easily distracted and I like it.
9. My creative mind is an asset not something to be ashamed of. Sorry mother I like to make stuff and write stories.
10. I really can't bring myself to care when I disappoint people. I hate disappointing myself as I have high expectations when it comes to certain things. However, it really pisses me off when people tell me they are disappointed in me. Hey, dick, it's my life and my existence go suck a duck and worry about your own damn self.
Wow that last one sure escalated quickly.
So . . . umm . . .
I guess that makes eleven.
11. I feel emotions really hard. I mean hard not amplified or deeply. My emotions are kind of like rocks flying at a curio cabinet full of fabrigé eggs. So much shattered pretty.
1 Not sure what you mean, but if you start sizing the guy up for a ball and chain after meeting, that could be a little put offish
ReplyDelete2 Yeah it does say something about you, but does someone have to give your fill of sh!t before the switch flips(#3 btw) or is it one strike and the game is over...next please?
4 What is the sign to random suitor one way or the other?
5 Envelope System or Dave Ramesy or Both
6 This one I can talk about...was celibate for several years...had a very very weak last month. It doesn't kill it permanently. It returns quite easily (YMMV). I liked it for several reasons..most importantly it allows you look at the person as they are not how funny a face you make, how weirder the sounds, and walking a little gingerly albeit happily the morning after. If you can get along great without the sex, sex may just enhance things....the trick is staying engaged in the person not the sex. Problem I fell into and reason I am resuming celibacy is I have a terrible habit of allowing my body to call the shots and not my mind or heart.
7 Chaos theory in action is fun...especially to watch when it strikes others.
8 Makes it hell to study when distraction strikes me. The ability to answer almost any question instantly is both amazing and making us all a little bit more lazy.
9 Nothing to apologize about there
10 "Ducking and Covering under the desk currently, please leave a message at the beep......*Beep*"
11 Not sure I understand that one care to expand on it some?
Regards,
Willy C
PS In regards to your next posting, could I be allowed to buy you a hot sweet concoction sometime sooner rather than later?
1. It isn't like that at all. However, I do want to know everything. Not in the controlling way, but more in the you are interesting and there for all of you interests me.
Delete2. & 3. I take a lot of crap before my switch gets hit.
4. I tend to make people comfortable and when there is no one around I chat with the nearest person. When I am in a conversation I do my best not to be thinking of a response, but keep myself intrigued by the other person's train of thought. People often get the wrong idea.
5. I am going to attempt an envelope system.
6. Good to know. I often have the opposite problem. People tend to treat me as a piece of meat; a toy even. Makes me feel like I'm not good for anything else. So I've taken sex out of the equation.
7. I'm not a fan of chaos. I detest it. Random, however, is a good friend.
8. I never found it to be a problem. I have always been a straight A student. Drives me bananas to get anything below an A.
9. I know
10. hahaha
11. For example: If I am sad I am horrible depressed. If I am happy I ecstatic. If I am angry I am seething. So on and so forth.
But, strangely enough, I lack some emotions like jealousy or sympathy.
hmm . . .
Just a follow up on celibacy....I took it up because without it I had a blind spot when it came to spotting women's faults. I would overlook purposely and inadvertantly because I was getting kissed. When I noticed this pattern, I realized the error of my ways...and went on a diet of bread and water as far as romance was concerned.
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